Cracked & Broken

 

cracked and broken,

my mind so much hope

cracked and broken,

my heart so much love

cracked and broken,

my soul so yearning for understanding

cracked and broken,

my body young and free

cracked and broken,

how can it be

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Peace and serenity

 

 

 

 

Drug of Choice

The pain is quite real
Heartache I do feel
When the night creeps on in
I do know what I’ll begin
My past is where it starts
But that is only part
From myself I do run
Unsure of who I am
You see my drug of choice
Is the food that has a voice
I know what I do not need
Illusion of control I must try to feed
When do I stop
Where do I go
How do I get help
I do not know
You see I don’t want to be an addict
But how do you tell someone
I can’t eat, the food is my disease
In control I’ve never really been
Food seems to be an only friend
That is something I do battle
Control is not within my reach
But that cake will make it seem
I have control within, only for a moment
Then it comes again
Food you see is not my friend
Its my comfort, my joy, my companion
No really its not any of that
Its what I do to get by
When I feel down inside
Its my illusion of control
To fill my stomach, but not my soul
Help I will find
Where I’m not sure
But I know its time.

 

Beauty in the Trees

 

 

In the trees
there is a life
In the dark
there is a sight
An eye flashes
in the tree
In the dark
she can see
How the wind
moves her hair
How the moon
illuminates her stare
For the tree
you see is she
Her hair is the leaves
Her stare shall always be
In the dark
In the light
Her eye always bright

Depression

Go away leave me alone
No I don’t want to answer the phone
Who is at the door
is not my care
I don’t even rememeber
the last time I brushed my hair
All the noise
All the sound
Keeps me feeling
as though I might drowned
There is no quiet in my head
Not even when I’m in bed
Sleep is no where to be seen
I can’t even remember my dreams
I want everyone to go away
This way I can not stay
There was a time
sounds weren’t so loud
There was a time
I could calm down
Where it went I do not know
I need some where to go
I need someone to
show me the way
I need for this feeling
to go away
Depression is no fun
Always feeling lost
and on the run
So at home is
where I stay
Wishing everyone
would just go away